I decided to fast and pray for the Lord to change my heart about raising support. I have always been the person on the other end of giving and it’s not easy for me to ask for help. The core lie the enemy has used against me my entire life has been “you are not good enough.” The Lord showed me I was buying back into that lie and was making it all about me…my worth, my effort, my strength. When my belly began to growl and I wanted to eat, I kept hearing the Lord say “Am I Enough for you?” “Yes Lord.”
As I have continued walking this out, my friend keeps reminding me “His blood is what makes you worthy and it’s Him who moves people’s hearts to sow into His Kingdom, not you!” It brought to my remembrance what I have learned about presenting the Gospel on the street…the result is not up to us, but Him! Talk about a relief and taking the pressure off of us!
Lord, I thank You for Your patience and Your gentle reminders to keep my eyes on You and off myself and my circumstances. Lord, forgive me when I become prideful and think that I can do things in my strength and not Yours. Lord, I praise You for being enough, for without You I am nothing. Please help me keep my eyes on You and You alone Lord! It’s in Jesus name I pray, amen.
“My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” Psalm 73:26
“I lift up my eyes to the mountains – where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.” Psalm 121